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A quiet word is my proposition

Hi all,

I wanted to share with you a story about a time I was propositioned for sex by a total stranger whilst on holiday in NYC. This happened about a year before I came out to myself, so was at a point in my life where I was still a little confused.

Let me set the scene, I was over there as my sister had moved offices for a few months (can anyone say free accommodation? lol) so literally stayed for 2 weeks. I pretty much walked the entirety of Manhattan, which was fun, but also annoying as their blocks are too close together (not like London where you can walk un-interrupted by roads for a while). Anyway I decided to go to the natural history museum (fun tip - you don't have to pay, its a suggested donation, but they make it out like you have to in order to get tourists like me to pay up). I paid... (In my defence I found out after).

Anyway, as I was walking around, taking pictures and being a proper tourist I noticed an old man looking at me. Initially I didn't take anything from it, I am of Pakistani origin and in America, so thought maybe people are a bit wary of us given whats happened etc. I continued on. After moving to the next room I found that he moved there also. I began to think he was following me, so to be sure I made a series of weird movements throughout the rooms. It was a Wednesday afternoon so wasn't that busy but found an open space where there were more people, hoping to lose him in the crowd. Thankfully he sat down to rest (like I said he was old), so I bolted and went to another part of the museum. I don't know how (maybe he found his second wind) but he managed to find me again. This time I switched rooms but found myself in a dead corner. That is when he approached me. He looked me up  and down and started to mumble 'yes.' he then asked me if I wanted to 'go back to my place for some fun?' I was shocked, disgusted and embarrassed. He was clearly in his 60's, out of breath from trying to follow me, but the worst part was his actual breath. It stank so much (I loathe bad breath). So there I was, being propositioned for sex, bearing in mind I haven't even had my first kiss yet let alone first sexual experience (for the record I was 25 when this happened). I just replied 'sorry not for me' and ran off.

I tried to find another part of the museum to go to, but I just wanted to leave. I left as quickly as possible and made it to the street before I started to cry. I felt so disgusted by myself. I had never had that sort of attention before (or any for that matter). I felt dirty, like I had brought this on to myself. I spent the rest of the day thinking things through. Would this be what my life would be like if I came out? Being hit on by pervy old guys?

Thankfully that hasn't been the case so far (more on that later)

Bye for now,

A
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