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Hi all,

I wanted to share my story about my first time. I was 26 (I know quite late - I was starting to think I was going to be the 40 year old virgin). He was a guy I met off Growlr (an app for bears - what is with all these animal names?). He was sweet, kind and lots of fun in our chats. We arranged to meet at his local station. Now normally I would be quite wary of this sort of situation, and I totally feel that anyone should be, but he seemed nice (and I am quite capable so felt safe). Plus it was a public space which is ALWAYS the best place to meet.

He was running late, but that was ok. When he turned up I was relieved that he looked like his picture on his profile (something that hasn't always been the case - more on that later). I was surprised that I wasn't nervous, but like I said he made me feel calm as he was genuinely a lovely guy. We made it to his flat and settled on the sofa to watch a movie. It was nice to just sit close to someone and be held. That quickly turned into my first kiss! (I was surprised - he just went for it). It was great though, always nice to be surprised and taken off guard by a kiss (as long as you want to kiss the person that is). I will spare the saucy details but it was my first oral experience, in more ways than just kissing ;). We had dinner and spent the rest of the night just kissing - it was lovely. Sadly was only a one night affair, but you get used to those.

What it did was spark some sort of sexual awakening in me. I already had Grindr (no big deal - pretty much everyone has used it) and quickly found my next rumble in the sheets. I drove this time to the hotel he was staying at. We had sex and was my first actual (safe - ALWAYS BE SAFE) penetrative experience (I topped). He didn't realise it was my first time - which is good as well. Again this was a one night affair, but we both knew this was just about sex. Unlike the first guy who I had spoken to for a few days, this person I literally just met (you get used to that - somehow).

That led me to my third guy (who to this date remains my only regret in my sexual life). He seemed nice, but after meeting him he was different than expected. Not in a necessarily bad way but he had definitely used photoshop. We talked for a while and I wasn't expecting to do anything but he leaned in to kiss me. I wasn't really feeling it, but as few touches in the right places gets you really horny. If I think about it now I feel a little ashamed I let it happen, but I learned from it and now know when to stop proceedings when I don't want anything to happen.

It is probably going to sound really slutty of me but this was over the course of one week! Lol (don't judge I know people who have had multiple partners within a day!). But was definitely more than I had before. I think I went a little 'boys gone wild'. But the week taught me a lot. I found out I'm a great kisser (trophies on shelf - lol), that one night stands are literally just that (and feel a little emotionless) and to know what I want when I want it (which is the best lesson).

I think the lessons learned were what I needed. I learnt a lot more over the next few years, and am still learning to this day.

Until next time,

A
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