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There will be nothing left for no-one

Hi all,

I recently came back from a holiday with who I thought was the man of my dreams. But sadly this dream never came into reality...

Let me start with some back story. I met this guy on tinder (I know so modern right?). We instantly clicked, even though he lived in the grand ol' USA (which might not be so grand now given recent political news). We chatted everyday and things were going well. We called each other Love and it felt like we were starting a relationship. Anyway back in April he came to London for a week and we had the best time. We got to know each other in person and did some amazing things. I did a staycation, which I would totally recommend to anyone as I had never really taken time out to explore London a lot. We left on good terms. Some time passed and he decided he wanted to come back to Europe but for us to go somewhere together. We settled on the French riviera, which was the best choice for weather, exploring and relaxing.

So the time for the holiday comes up. I'm super excited to meet him again as I had really missed him. When he arrived we instantly got into the holiday, we had a lot to do and only a week to do it all. I was hoping this time there would be some intimacy, but sadly this wasn't the case. He gave me clear signals that he only wanted to be friends, and this was confirmed through people that we met on the holiday whom he had confided in. This broke my heart, as I really do love him, and thought that he loved me back. It hurt me for a day or so, but then I realised that I shouldn't feel bad, just accept it and move on. So thats what I did. I stopped trying to impress him and trying to initiate intimacy and just let the rest of the holiday pan out as two friends exploring a new place.

Now that I am back I am more determined to find someone who wants the same things as me. I am sure of myself now. I no longer have to have Mr LA on my mind, stopping me from finding someone as I had thought me and him were going to be together. So even though this holiday didn't turn out the way I wanted, with a fairy tale ending, it has given me the reality check I needed to move on and find someone new. Me and Mr LA will remain as friends, and that is how it will be.

We are already planning our next trip away...



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