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Shine a light on me

Hey all,

A funny thing happened to me on Friday. I had a date with a guy who I had been speaking to for a few weeks. We met on tinder and instantly hit it off. Lets call him El Cohete ;). We decided to meet for coffee, and get to know each other more. I drove to just outside Reading and met with him. Our initial plan for going for coffee backfired as the place was closed, so we went to a bar and had mocktails. The evening went well, we have similar interests, laughed a lot and conversation just flowed. He was really sweet and complimentary too which is a bonus. As the evening went further along we decided to leave as the bar was closing and walked back to our cars, which we parked in a supermarket car park. He hugged me, and said that he would do more but it was freezing cold, which it was - I was literally shivering, and his body was giving me something but it wasn't warmth ;). I suggested we sit in his car for a bit and chat for while we heat up.

Well one thing turned to another and we were making out in his car. Full on, kissing everywhere and feeling each other up. Needless to say we got hot really fast. He moved the car to a more secure place in the car park and we continued. Layers started coming off and we were really going at it. He kept saying that we should move and go somewhere else, perhaps his place, but then we kept kissing and forgot that it was ever mentioned. After a while, and I mean a good while, we were just caressing each other and being tender. He held me initially and I felt so safe and secure. Then was my turn. All throughout this we were bumpy at the fact we were in a car fooling around. The lights had turned off in the car park so we felt safe. He was in my arms and leaning against me. We were just enjoying the moment. That was until a flash of light illuminated the car. I looked over my shoulder and saw a yellow vest. I knew right then this was the police! I thought we were in trouble for sure! I told him and he quickly bolted up and back into the drivers seat. I then noticed another flash of light from his side and another police officer. He rolled down the window. At this point we were half naked (top half) and it was apparent that his dick was out. The officer asked him if this was his car and for some ID. I got my top and started to put it back on. The officer on my side of the car was just shining the light. I didn't roll down my window as I didn't want to know more. The officer on El Cohete's side asked for my ID as well. We were both scared as he went away to radio in details. He came back and said that it was fine, everything checked out and said 'you can go back to your evening.' This threw us, did he just give us permission to continue? It was weird. But I have to say the officer was very professional and understanding, nice even. They left and we were in shock as to what just happened. I apologised, and so did he. Then we just laughed for a long time as we waited for his car to de-mist so we could leave.

He drove me to my car, which wasn't far at all, could have walked in less than 10 seconds, but was sweet of him. We made plans to meet up again and kissed a bit more before I got to my car and we drove off. It was a weird night, but also quite nice too. I went to work the next day (yesterday) and didn't hear from him. I messaged after work to joke about what happened and he laughed but said that it would be better if we were friends (*sound of heart breaking*). He said that my family situation would be an issue and he didn't want to get hurt. I understand, but thought it was a bit of a cop out. This is the second time someone has used that excuse with me. It seems if I want a relationship I have to move out.

So other than a funny story, this post is my revelation that I NEED TO MOVE OUT. I want to be free and hopefully stop the excuse that my family is holding me back. This may lead to other excuses as to why guys don't want to be with me, but process of elimination will whittle those down until I find the one.

Lets hope its soon, and slightly less crazy :).



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