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I’ve gotta be me

Hi all, It’s been a while since my last blog post, but so much has happened that I haven’t had time to get on here and type away. Work is making me feel like I made the wrong choice by taking the job. My manager is being annoying, and is holding me back for fear I will be better than him. Or at least he is giving that impression to me. The only thing getting me through are the people I work with. They are becoming more than work colleagues, and I consider them to be good friends now. As such I decided to be more open and honest with them (not that I wasn’t before), but I hadn’t disclosed my sexuality to them at all. Now I’m not the type of person who feels that I have to advertise that I’m gay. Over the years I have got to a point where I am more confident in telling people, but at the beginning I would get overcome with fear and anxiety, and would dance around the subject. I would fear that by telling people after knowing them for so long felt like a betrayal of our friendship, a

You drive me crazy

Hi all, It’s been a long time since my last post, and honestly the only reason is that life has been getting in the way of writing. A few updates, I have started a full time position (in the same role I was contracting in - so moving out will be a possibility soon!), I have been a little too relaxed on my no sugar hiatus so need to start reigning that in again and I recently just came back from a holiday in Dubai. Dubai was lovely, the weather was nice (as I hear it always is) and it was the first time in a holiday I got to relax. I even hit a milestone and took my top off on the beach! I never thought I would do that in my adult life ever. Not that I was showing off my non-existent abs, but more so I felt more confident to just not care what people thought. I was there to just enjoy my book and catch some well needed vitamin D (not to be confused with the other kind of D, of which I did not get). What I realised quickly was to fully enjoy Dubai you need to be rich, or at least ha

Hand in hand, that’s worth the return

Hi all, I just got back from an amazing holiday in south east Asia and I miss it already. I had a mini adventure with a group of lovely people, and lived almost like a local for 2 weeks. It was all amazing, the food, the people and the culture. I finally got to tick off Angkor Wat from my bucket list too, which was spectacular to see in person (especially at sunrise). It wasn’t all easy though, we pretty much had to wake up every day at 6am (uh I’m on holiday and shouldn’t have to), just so we could be on time for things in terms of travelling by buses or going on excursions. But our group made it worth it, so wasn’t too bad. It did make me very horny though, as I went the whole time without satisfying any urges. This was mainly as I could not find any private time, but after a while I set myself a challenge to see how long I could last. Without sounding too explicit I can say that I usually find time to self love a few times a week. This was the first time I went without that. Af

What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Hi All, I hope everyone is having an amazing pride month so far. This month has been an extra special one for me as I finally, after years and years of eating, made it to my first ever pride event! To say it was a long time coming is a severe understatement, but I am so happy that it finally did and I loved every aspect of it! Now as some of you are aware my home life doesn’t just allow me to take a few days away without a just reason. Telling my parents that I’m going to spend the weekend partying and enjoying being gay is out of the question for now, so I had to lie and say I was visiting friends in Manchester, whilst secretly staying in central London and going to pride events. It works out to be more expensive of course, but I treated it like a mini Gaycation (tm) and made the most of it. I mean I had planned my outfit a few weeks ahead and also planned one for rain, which thankfully never came, so I got to wear what I wanted and feel amazing in it. Sadly my gay besties were

Let Me Out!

Hi all, Over the past month I have been on a Twitter storm, and I have had the privilege to connect with lots of interesting people, as well as have some great conversations about being Muslim and gay. It is honestly one of the main reasons I have Twitter (@GuyGinaMonos), as it allows me to connect with people I would never have met in real life. I have been lucky enough to find people who have found my blog to be of help, and that feeling is amazing. I will continue to write content that matters and help out as many people as possible. That brings me to an exciting project that I got informed about by a lovely man called Omid. He is creating a pop-up children's book about coming out, and accepting what lies within the closet. I think this is an amazing narrative that needs to be told, and honestly think that resources like these are beneficial to the community as it helps parents and children understand what it means to be LGBTQ, and how daunting it can be to come out.

So don’t you bring me down today

Hi all, It’s been a crazy few weeks so nice my last post. I had a minor surgery (all planned for and it went well), booked a few holidays, a Gaycation (tm GuyGinaMonologues 2018) for my first ever pride festival! (So so so excited!) and another for an explorers holiday in the Far East (can’t wait for the food), I started fasting (which is another reason I can’t wait for food lol) and had an interview for the position I’m already doing. It’s been interesting to say the least. One thing that I have noticed however is that I feel really good about myself recently. I have noticed the change over the last few months, but I can’t pinpoint exactly what has changed to male me feel this way. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining one but, but it got me thinking as to why now, and how can I keep this feeling going. Let’s start a few months ago. I have already spoken about how I gave up sugar back in December, and so far this is still going well and strong. As a result I have lost a little

What about us?

Hi all, It has been some months since my last post, and for that I can only apologise as I have been stuck in a writers block about things to blog about. That, and the fact I didn't have a laptop for around 2 weeks, also stopped me from writing. Suffice to say my new laptop is amazing and I don't know why it took me so long to replace my old one. So what is new? Well I am still looking for my dream job, and ways to leave home, so things aren't going the way I planned, but I remain hopeful at least. I got a date for an important surgery (not dying, just fixing old wounds) and I should hopefully be realising my dream of being able to ride a bike this Summer. So my list of achievements should be getting longer. I have also been binge watching stuff as I find myself with more time. My recent binge was the second season of Dear White People (it's amazing and I would definitely recommend people to watch it). For those that haven't seen it, it is a show about the

I don’t give a FVCK

Hi All, It had been a while since my last post and so much has gone on in my life since. Major news is that I am not with bae anymore, mainly due to my circumstance of living at home and leading a double life. It hurt, a lot, but I want him to be happy and we are still friends so that is great. Work has been trudging along, although they have yet to pay me for December so I am living it lean for a while. I had a few interviews for jobs, so fingers crossed that one of them works out and I can start the next chapter of my life. All in all I remain hopeful for 2018 and can’t believe it’s already February so it’s flying by. What I wanted to talk about today was something I witnessed yesterday at the clinic, and yes I am saying clinic the same was Alaska said it in Snatch Game (God bless Mae West). I went to get my last injection to give me immunity towards HPV. For those that don’t know, HPV is a virus that can be transmitted via sexual contact, and can leave you with warts or precanc