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I’m speechless

Hi all,

It’s been an interesting few weeks. There has been an atmospheric change at work and it seems a lot better now, we have had paranoia about the corona virus on daily news, and the weather has been blowing us left, right and centre. For me, there has been a few changes of mind about whether or not I want to keep working in retail, and an incident today where a customer threw a box of tablets at me really does make think it’s time to move on. But it’s not all been so gloomy. I met Lady a week ago and we talked about everything from the important to little things that have happened to us. It was refreshing, and long overdue. Things with bae have been amazing, and continue to go strong. So I do have a lot to be thankful for.

I have been thinking however that this blog may be past it’s expiration date. When I started this blog I did so to show the other side of being Muslim and gay. When I was struggling with who I was and how I was going to get through it, I tried to find other people in the same situation. I found very few Muslim people back then talking about the issues I was facing, and even when I did find something it was almost always negative, and detailed very many negative experiences. Whilst this is the case for most people, I felt it didn’t help me as much. There was little out there that showed something positive, the brighter side to it all. The side where people can get past the labels of religion and sexuality and love their best life. So I felt it was a good time to bring my view into play.

This blog allowed me to write articles for websites and magazines, and bring me to a community of like minded people who have reacted positively to it. However in a world with instagram, podcasts and YouTube, I think blogging may be an ancient method to try and get your viewpoints across. I recently have been listening to a podcast made by a colleague at work, and seeing that flourish gave gave me memories when I got my first 100 views. The fact that people want to view what you are saying is a lovely feeling.

In order to keep up I have many options. I could start a podcast (even though I don’t like the sound of my recorded voice), I could start vlogging (but have hesitation to show my face and become so public), or I can wrap up my blog and let what has been written be my legacy for others who may be struggling and stumble upon it. I would be interested to see what people who do read this blog think about that.

Let me know, to anyone who is reading, if you would like for me to continue. If I have managed to help anyone then that is reward enough for me.

Love to you all,



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